:DD finals-->over! *haha*
yeayea is like i have only a single post per semester and only when i have nothing else better to do. blogging is slowly fading from my life. or has it already faded? i do not even have the feeling of wanting to blog anymore, and to even tell things a bout my life. oh wait.....did i even tell much or even a little bout my life (at certains posts?) , or some i do not even consider telling out bout my true life. some scene of happenings 'yes lah', but then how much can words describe a person's life unless you truly get to know the person?
sometimes i even think of wanting to close down my blog. it is really really useless at the rate i am using it like that. or i just come here to use it as a link to lead me to my friend's blogs or so.


*ugh* *shake shake* *haha* *um*

oh ya as now, exams are over. so i am like actually totally free! not back to Ipoh yet though. wanted to stay awhile in KL and enjoy a little first before i go back. also to wait for some of my friend's papers to be over too as their paper is not ending till this coming week ends. wanna go out shopping with them!
so while in the process of waiting, i have been watching tvb series and also reading a book entitled 'The Last Song'. i am pretty much loving the book now. the way the author describes her emotions and situations is very intriguing indeed. bought the book before semester starts and now that the semester ended, i have only started to actually touch it. reading it with relaxing mind. is a nice feeling.

now, that book as my entertainment; tvb series as my other entertainment, and waiting for shopping time entertainment to come. :)
next week parents are coming to KL too. then i can bring them to places to eat and shop! *ah* :)

also, various of exciting-calling-out-to-me-to-watch movies are coming out soon! like a weeks time or so! like Harry Potter, Rapunzel, etc?  xp

when i go back to Ipoh, i shall do something to my hair. :s  i am like kinda bored with my hairstyle already. yah, i know i keep changing my hairstyles as my current one is like more than a month untrimmed fringe (hence it's length has gone until my cheek bone area), and curly long hair (i would rate it more like waves).
so, i am deciding whether i should trim my fringe back short, or leave it to grow long. also my hair should i curl it more obvious big curls and cut my hair shorter? *hmmm*

also also, plans is like updating my cooking skills into more pro! *kekeke* i have already got a few food ideas on my mind. ;)

other than those plans, hopefully my shopping would not leave me broke much. as i want to buy nice clothings for winter too. yes, i am going to UK again this coming december.

kay, no pictures. end.

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ah...4 months. in just four months, so many things happened. that can't be described by words alone. many things and emotions i've gone through.

i do not know what exactly should be done to my blog. do not feel like updating. do not feel like doing anything to it. that's why i privatize it for the "moment". as i just feel it's lame to keep displaying "dead-stuff" and sufficient to just keep those memories to myself that whenever i want to read back bout happenings that made me blog; i can just look back up myself.

just suddenly feel like posting something up and re-opening it to public-view-mode. it's because i'm pretty surprised as there are so many people that care and concerned bout me and even realised bout my blog privatization eventhough i thought that nobody would actually visit my blog as it is so dead due to me abandoning it.

it just feels....(i do not know how to describe), put it simple, it made me smiled. the feeling of being cared. even by those u never thought would care (not that much).

basically, like what Sam said, i've grown up as i do not wanna show people my feelings much. somthing like that? yes, i'm 22 this year. i do not feel happy much bout my life. blame the depression-ness that has been bothing me overflowingly much this year. the only things that i want now is to graduate fast, and want my parents to live a long life (as the state that they've been worrying so much bout little things and over thinking is making me worry much bout their lives). as bout the showing feelings part, i think i do not like to show much since last time?

let the depression go. and maybe i will feel better to update. but it seems i've been letting the depression killing me slowly. sigh. very bad, i know.

and, do not worry bout me my friends! so far, i'm very much alive, and there are still little things that makes me happy every now and then, and little things that made my day. so, i'll survive.
thanks so much for all your care and concerns and wanting to read my bloggie.  love. (:

Oh, March is coming to an end already. it's already the end of it. i am getting more and more stress as i think more bout my studies. ah.. it's getting so tough. more submissions, assignments getting due soon, tutorial homeworks getting harder to understand, etc. *headache* 
other than studies, there are other life problems in my life as well. which is making me really frustrated and mixed feelings came along.
despite these situations, i seem to still be being busy enjoying myself. which i should stop already and get back to reality. thinking bout all these, makes me feel like i'm such a lousy person. self-esteem gets lowered. and happiness flies with a 45 degree sloping upward graph line together with my thoughts.

also still; all these taught me to realise how blessed i am actually. it makes me feel as if i don't deserve all this goodness, but i'm glad i have all these blessings as i don't want to lose them. blessings such as, what great and loving parents i got which loves me unconditionally and are always by my side through thick and thin; having such a great boyfriend which never fails to talk to me and love me unconditionally also; having great friends in ipoh which i know they will not turn me down whenever i need them; etc...; and of course God's grace which can sustain me all along in everything i've been through and giving me all these blessings.

"Please forgive me Lord, for i have sinned against You.

Thanks for everything You've done for me.

Thanks for your never-ending forgiveness.

I will try my best.

To be a good girl.

So, Father in heaven, 

i can make You proud too.

Hopefully i do not disappoint You anymore." T_T

So, basically, events in March, to summarize, most of the time is spent with my cousin. he spent a lot of time accompanying me going around, shopping (i feel bad for wasting so much of his time). Also, other than my cousin, second person i spent my time with is my ex-roomie, she's a very nice girl and i'm always happy to go out with her as we keep accompanying each other. little things which happened are like, ah wong(mui) came to sunway(here) to visit and attend a concert. due to timing, and me being not so good (=/ ), i failed to accompany her much (ps.sorry mui). but she's so sweet, i've got presents from her! =D

bracelet with little blue crystal elements, and sweets in that look-like-cigarette-box. xD

oh, and i bought for myself, the rainbow coloured fan thing. wanted to buy it for quite some time actually. just, i so happen decided to actually buy it.

...with the moon.
this fan, has a story with it. during when i decided to buy, and after that, the things that happened. @@

also i played 'bubble-wrap' ! hee...

cuzzie got it for me. haha! he's a stealer! xP

 this piece,

from this big thing(below)...

can see where the little piece fits into? xD






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